I'm just trying to find
Ways to say goodbye
Looking for a sign
That it's our time to fly

Trying to say my goodbyes
A storm in my heart, pouring rain from my eyes
The biggest fear that I got, so afraid when I die
That heaven don't exist, there ain't no angels that fly
All them stories bout them harps and them halos were lies
Gold streets and pearly gates
This whole thing y'all worships fake
Never believed in Heaven much until I lost San
Us reuniting in heaven, hoping it's God's plan
A place with no Crohn's disease or health insurance companies
Or felony cases from making wealth serving custos trees
All these stresses from the world made us break apart
We can't be together in this life and San it breaks my heart
When I die, I hope I get to watch my life like a movie
And the scenes with you in em, el be my favorite parts
Painful memories it's hard for us to even grab a bite
She wants to reconnect I'm hoping maybe in the afterlife

Can't be together in this world can't even be friends
Afraid if Heaven don't exist I'll never see you again
It's the way it has to be
Just say a prayer for me

I'm sorry that I let u down
I'm haunted by the ways I failed
For the stupid shit I did, I got a decade in Hell
Gotta do all ten, ain't no making bail from Satan's jail
Meanwhile u in Heaven have Michelangelo paint your nails
Have Versace hymn your robe
You always been pure of heart but me I need to cleanse my soul
Let the flames burn the greed out my heart
I'm super happy you're being treated like the queen that you are
Nine years pass and I'm working on my final year
wrote me saying that you love me, but u met a guy up there
Has my good qualities but none of my bad
On Earth he never sealed a single bud in a bag
In tune with his emotions, affectionate and talkative
No possessions in death, my blessing all I got to give
Teardrops on the paper, she cried when she wrote it
I wrote back, saying live ya afterlife to the fullest and I love u eternally

Can't be together in this world can't even be friends
Afraid if Heaven don't exist I'll never see you again
It's the way it has to be
Just say a prayer for me

Living life without you don't come easy
Hard to hide these tears and face this pain
Cuz loving you was like the air I'm breathing
Now all that's here is thunder and rain
Will I find your love in Heaven?
Will you even remember me?
Guess I've got to learn these lessons
In life there are no guarantees